Frustration

 Ishan felt really sad and a bit frustrated at the same time. Since he started liking her, he never dared to maintain even an eye contact with her and the reason for that might be his fear, how she will react to this. But for the first time, he made an attempt to go close to his love, to have word with her, but to Ishan, it looked like, she denied him for that and this thing was breaking him like hell. 

He was at unrest so on same day, he text her. He asked, why she moved away from the bench when he was about to approach her? Is there something bothering her? He was waiting for her reply and he got it within a couple of hours. She replied that it wasn't her work bench where Ishan was heading, she moved to her working place only. Though she was genuine in her context, Ishan wasn't able to digest this as he wanted to talk with her anyhow(even a stud becomes moron in this journey of love)...

He again started thinking in a track where pain and suffering were waiting for him. Moving away from her....

His texting frequency reduced, almost he stopped messaging her. For more than a week, he continued this, he wasn't aware of his rude behaviour toward both, his love emotion and her. He again determined to stay away from this beautiful feeling of love and thought it will go in some time. He tried all the good n bad in that period, watching movies, trying/pretending to chill with friends, late night outs, going to different places, and every other thing, but to his misery, everything went in vain.

Not for a single second, in that time, he was deprived of her thoughts. His mind was full of her thoughts, her smile, more than beautiful face of her, her messages, her eyes, her attitude, everything about her. But still this moron was thinking of staying away from her, what a pity!

After a week of this pain cum remedy over his situation, his unrest ordered his fingers to text her and this time he was all ready to propose her. To tell her, what he really feels for her, what he actually wants, her love. And he approached her by texting...

After this rude behaviour, he wanted her to listen his feelings without taking cognizance of her state of mind, he messaged her and asked her to talk. Fumbling and waiting for her reply, checking the phone after every second, he received reply, she replied with a negative answer. She doesn't wanted to talk with him probably, she wasn't wrong after Ishan's rudeness. 

This thing again came like a blow for him. But he was determined to confess this time, he wanted to tell her all his emotions, expose all the love he holds in his heart for her. But she wasn't in a state to listen him. Ishan tried to convince her for too long, he pleaded, he even begged just for her to listen him, but she didn't listen. The suffering continues for him...

After a month of waiting, on one fine day, Ishan asked her, about her wellness. He wait so long just to give some space to her, some time to be at rest and listen him. She hasn't forgot what my moron friend did, but still, she replied with a little exasperation and gave appropriate answers. Ishan still remembers the day when she talked with him, answered his questions full of care and love. But he was not close from confessing his feelings this time. 

He was feeling alive just to see a small gesture of her, her replies!

To be Continued.....